crumbs are for the birds…and you love, deserve so much more
In the dark corners of my mind a twisted thought evokes but not your typical kind
Etched upon my brain rolling around as I lash about running to escape the pain
Such a fucked up system he sits up there feeling superior boastfully believing in his own wisdom
I stare over to you sickened by your frame while the hustle and bustle strangle the air I finally realize this has all just been a game
I’m the pawn that suffered beneath you the queen really yet you were never a king this plot is almost over with one thing left to do
Those shackles I once wore place them on you now never again will I be your little whore
Spin it around as you begin to fear I’m the one seeking pleasure this time walking away I turn to see you leer
So much hate burning from your flesh how agonizing it must feel never a moment to rest
Run away far and wide it always catches up there is no place to hide
I’ve taken the reign who’s controlling who now the true master inside this brain
don’t cross me evermore in the end I will win the truth will show
I’ve withstood and fallen down from that grave I arose buried alive you couldn’t keep me underground
Staring out at the smoke filled sky imagining what my life will finally look like as I silently whispered to you a final goodbye
Author: Tammy Kay
Somewhere along blurred lines, my self worth was solely dependent upon everyone else's opinions besides mine. Past life would keep dictating this way of “living” for a very long time. Like a brick pathway, my belief system was cemented in and it established a flawed premise of which I had learned to stick with and live by. I have since come to understand that a belief is just a thought I continue to have.
So brick by brick, I’ve begun the demolition and reconstruction during this process of becoming the most authentic version of me. For a lifetime this far, I have accepted the unacceptable, tolerated the intolerable and have remained in places far beyond their expiration date. After all, I had to stay with all my broken pieces. Now, I have been stifled for far too long. Freedom has bestowed upon me the use of my voice at last. Won't you join me on a new roller coaster of life as I navigate my way through this next part of my journey?
I promise to share my experience, strength and hope from my heart with depth and truth. I guarantee I will write about difficult things, struggles and even pain, yet in the darkness a little light glows. Through inspiration, a glimmer will shine because I want to leave you a little better than when you first found me.
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