You taught me things about being your best
Loving myself was far from the rest
You showed me what it was like to serve only you
To be selfless everyday pulling me through
I surrendered to your laws
You magnified all my flaws
Convincing me you were after exceptional
When nothing less than perfection was acceptable
You were a blessing and then it was cursed
Everything calculated everything rehearsed
How you became the broken man I met long ago
Baffles me still in this game of the unknown
I’m hurting from this pain left in ruins of my heart
Wishing you would just stop tearing me apart
This unrelenting sadness devours me whole
Retreating to the depths of my wounded soul
Some days I taste the freedom from your grasp
Others I awaken and feel like this will last and last
Won’t you stop this insanity I don’t wish to play
Let me move forward stop taking my breath away
I had to go I couldn’t remain
In the dark and dismal place to glorify your name
What’s done is over put it all to rest
White flag of surrender this is not a test
All the while I felt the laceration
Breathless and shattered forever your complication
✍🏼🧝🏻♀️
The Whole Cookie 