crumbs are for the birds…and you love, deserve so much more
Don’t live like the sky is falling
When will the other shoe drop I used to wonder. It always did. I’d sit and wait and impatiently ponder.
Would she come home drunk yet again? Better prepare supper just in case, either way I wasn’t going to win.
I was to you the brightest shining star. Your precious baby girl, but you let things get too far.
It wasn’t really your fault for my undoing. Somewhere along the line you lost your footing.
Could I simply walk to kitchen without him peering? I’d try to sneak by and she would catch you leering.
What was my crime for being a young teenaged girl? You were a twisted man getting a cheap sick thrill.
Work harder to be invisible from the attention, maybe it would stop. Such a fucking nightmare waiting for the other shoe to drop.
Author: Tammy Kay
Somewhere along blurred lines, my self worth was solely dependent upon everyone else's opinions besides mine. Past life would keep dictating this way of “living” for a very long time. Like a brick pathway, my belief system was cemented in and it established a flawed premise of which I had learned to stick with and live by. I have since come to understand that a belief is just a thought I continue to have.
So brick by brick, I’ve begun the demolition and reconstruction during this process of becoming the most authentic version of me. For a lifetime this far, I have accepted the unacceptable, tolerated the intolerable and have remained in places far beyond their expiration date. After all, I had to stay with all my broken pieces. Now, I have been stifled for far too long. Freedom has bestowed upon me the use of my voice at last. Won't you join me on a new roller coaster of life as I navigate my way through this next part of my journey?
I promise to share my experience, strength and hope from my heart with depth and truth. I guarantee I will write about difficult things, struggles and even pain, yet in the darkness a little light glows. Through inspiration, a glimmer will shine because I want to leave you a little better than when you first found me.
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