crumbs are for the birds…and you love, deserve so much more
The architect of my own nightmare
Sleep the illusive one why must I chase you down Trap and wrestle you to the ground
My heart it feels every crack, fracture and break Isn’t it enough for my unsettled mind to escape
Every bait and switch was a work of art You had me going right from the start
Today is just another wrecking ball sized blow These fucking memories simmer and glow
Once twisted inside like tangled up knots Have now become my everyday thoughts
They beckon and howl like a wolf in the night Come play it out with me until we get it right
I saddled and rode this mystery out to the end We lost more than the other was willing to bend
Author: Tammy Kay
Somewhere along blurred lines, my self worth was solely dependent upon everyone else's opinions besides mine. Past life would keep dictating this way of “living” for a very long time. Like a brick pathway, my belief system was cemented in and it established a flawed premise of which I had learned to stick with and live by. I have since come to understand that a belief is just a thought I continue to have.
So brick by brick, I’ve begun the demolition and reconstruction during this process of becoming the most authentic version of me. For a lifetime this far, I have accepted the unacceptable, tolerated the intolerable and have remained in places far beyond their expiration date. After all, I had to stay with all my broken pieces. Now, I have been stifled for far too long. Freedom has bestowed upon me the use of my voice at last. Won't you join me on a new roller coaster of life as I navigate my way through this next part of my journey?
I promise to share my experience, strength and hope from my heart with depth and truth. I guarantee I will write about difficult things, struggles and even pain, yet in the darkness a little light glows. Through inspiration, a glimmer will shine because I want to leave you a little better than when you first found me.
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